Assalamualaikum semua...Salam Jumaat yer...
yeayyyy..jumaat dh...then minggu depan banyak cuti...ngeeee...senyum tahap kuasa 2...hehehehe..sironokk oooo.. (tapi cuti bukan bemakne boleh beritirehat di rumah yer...not at all...i is kene settlekan few benda penting utk wedding..makanya hari cuti is my hari kelam kelibut day nnti...believe it...haiyoooo..pengsan...)
Ermmm..kali ni i is nak mengadu sikit boleh x dengan uols??boleh x..heeeee..(wahhh ayat..mengadu sangatt..huhu)...
tapi dlm hati tertanya2 jugk...perlu ke nak mengadu kat dlm ni..bolehke?x salah ke..tapiiiii..rase2 mcm dah x tertanggung...i is bukan jenis yang nak meroyan , mengamuk @ maki hamun sesuke hati atau tanpa sebab..tapi kalau dah sesuatu bende tu bagi i dah melampau aka over sangat...bolehke bertahan lagi??homaigadddd..if korang..ape korang buat??(i bet lepas ni mungkin akan ada yang ckp tindakan iolsss ni stupid...iols x kisah..asalkan dah luahkan sedikit rasa hati ni...alhamdulillah...im okay after thiss..but for now...yess...i need some personal time to cooling myselff..mahapp..ayat carca merbaa sgt i pakai).. hrm...uolss pernah x buat 4/5/6/10 keje in one time??how bout ur salary??ade naik x??mcm mana dengan officemate??ok with u??how bout ur personal life after work??dapat freedom x??me??i dun know...rsernyer i dh keje kat sini almost nak masuk 4 tahun dh...mule2 keje i rse everything was running smooth...walaupun kadang2 stress tu lagi banyak dari happy..but im ok with that...me still can handle it.. ( i ni jenis boleh keje under pressure kot??eh??).. tapi now...i dah mule rase letih dengan sume ni...dont know why..n i rase prestasi keje i makin lame makin menurun sgt...seriouslyyy i sendiri boleh nampak n rase..kenapa ya...stress sgt2 ker??letih sgt ker??sumpah mmg xtau..but i thinkkk need to tell something...office i is x ramai staff...n i actely work for admin dept...tapi i doing everything...operation event , sales & marketing , HR , Despatch , purchasing in n out , customer service , public relation and etc.....walopun waktu kerja i dah abess...i tetap kena ganggu..kdg2 pkul 12malam , 1/2/3/ pgi still kne ganggu with them samte2 nak tanye psal kerja...in meant time..i rase seronok keje mcm ni..so i mungkin x kisah...but now...tidak lagi rasenyerr...i dah mule rasa sakit hati , x ikhlas nak keja..nak marah...hrm..mcm2 lagi la rse...kenapakah???& for all information...i mmg ade cari kerja lain & niat nak resign...tapi mungkin xde rezeki lagi...sampai sekarang i still kerja sini...so i x kisah sangat..belum rezeki utnuk bertukar ke new environment lagi...mudah-mudahan lepas kahwin ade la rezeki kenzz..mane nak tau..Allah maha berkuasa kan..dia tau ape yang terbaik untuk kita..
Smenjak keje sini..i rase i dah boleh jadi pakar psychologist dah...everyday , every second , every min i akan mengawal emosi , rasa hati untuk tidak marah2 , x benci , x maki orang walopun i kene maki teruk dengan diorang sume...i try to be the best that i can..i cuba kawal emosi sebaik-baiknyer...they marah , maki , ape sume..i try utk tidak amik port..n i be hati kering...seriussly...sampaikan i rase i ni dh xde hati dh...orang ckp ape,,,i just senyum n buat x tau..just focus n settle my job..makin hari makin lame i feel that i really stress n penat sgt...percayalah sume ni st2 bagi kesan dkt hormon i...tiap2 bulan period x teratur...asik kene migrain..dulu susah nak sakit skrng bile2 mase je i blh migrain la , demam la , lesu badan , sakit kepale otak niii...n paling worst is emosi n perangai i...rase sebe salah sgt bile balik rumah kdg2 sampai x bercakap dgn family langsung...kdg2 terlepas kemarahan dkt org lain..kejam sgt rasa hati ni...T_T...macam mana ye nak terusan handle this kind of think...i cant stop thinking bout work 24 hourss @48 hourss...hari2 masuk keje paling awal n kadang2 balik paling lambat...walopun i nak apply cuti untuk kawen ni pon still counting nak amek cuti brp hari...xnak amik awal n lame sgt..still fikir kerja ape nak kene settle dlu..rse mcm x pernah nak fikir psl diri sendiri semenjak keje sini... (nangis2 lap air mate)..
korang rase what should i do now??and oso...i dah try slow talk with them bout my work , ..but still same until now...hrm..ape yang nak kena buat ye skrng??anyone can hlp me??
bagi pendapat uolss , nasihat or what??yesss im really need motivation rigth now..really2 need it...i feel really down..
see??dah xtau nak ckp mcm mane dh...but dah terluah mcm ni...rsernyer mcm dah lega sikit...ngeeee...so ok..nak continue kerjaaa...babaiiii....
****Im just release what i feel...xde dendam or ape yer..jgn salah sangke..babai
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